all over and done with

another year - but the same crap...
because of a stupid petty argument because Mr Chugga didn;t want to share his thorntons chocolate champagne bottle that secret santa bought him my new year has started as sooooo many others have over the 15 years we have been together... not talking, and generally having a massive atmosphere.
All I want from life is to be content, I dont want pots of money, I dont want a huge house, I dont want a drop dead gorgeous husband and fantastically behaved kids. I want to be comfortable in my skin and be comfortable with the people around me. Instead I feel like an outcaste, I lost nearly 5 stone thinking it would make me happy, but it hasn't ... its just made me realise that i hate my life more than i thought, i hate it because of what it is, not the fact that i was living it as a fat person. Its great to be able to go to the next sale and buy size 14 jeans and fit in them comfortably, it was great to be able to wear this dress http://www.bravissimo.com/products/clothing/dresses-and-skirts/bravissimo/bp17-details.aspx and feel like a million dollars and enjoy people looking at me because as gok would say I'd got my bangers out.... but I came home to the same boring man who doesn't even seem to have noticed that I have shrunk by a total of 61lb and gone from a size 26 to a 14/16

so like I say, same shit different year - lets hope this year gets better from here on - if not i think I might pack my bags and do a flit - i doubt anyone would bother reporting me missing - probably be pleased to see the back of me - wathc out for my picture on the iceland milk bottles!